Love in the time of COVID-19

Hi sweet souls,

I come to you all with nothing but love in these challenging times. Our world is on the edge of a crisis or, perhaps we’ve already crossed the street to greet it… Either way, I believe this global shift we are experiencing will linger on for a while, there is no quick fix when the wounds of societal progression, and its environmental, health and financial impacts run deep within our global, interwoven lives. Although the virus will sicken, and end in death for many, we will find a vaccination and many will heal or not experiences sickness at all. I think the greater implications will run deep with financial burden and a crippled health care system.

With that being said, I trust in our human capacity for kindness and our capability to lift one another through difficulties. We have powerful ability (as a humanity) to shift our focus away from the heaviness, fear and uncertainty of the current state of affairs, towards the positive (the helpers, Mother Nature’s beauty, creativity of community, etc) happening all around us. Our dedication towards personal responsibly to help one another and think collectively will be a huge indication of how the quality our individual lives, national lives and global lives move forward. We have to come together in community (of course while practicing social distance) more now, than ever before. I’m not a scientist, I’m not a doctor, I’m not an economist and my words may hold little weight in the public sector. By no means are my words intended to diminish the incredible collective effort going on by our health care-professionals, first responders, and politicians trying to combat this virus on the ground level. These people are hero’s who I deeply honor and respect.  But for the sake of the rest of us, my intention is that these words inspire hope – I am  a human, just like you, with a perfectly normal appetite for health and wellness, with a desire for nothing more than to feel safe and secure, to love and be loved.

For “work” I do lots of things. One of my favorite and most fulfilling hats I wear is that of a yoga teacher. I am a yogi in my life walk, and far from perfect. (I cuss, I sometimes drink too much and I have a sweet affection for all kinds of play – surf, ukulele, hula hooping, blowing bubbles, traveling… you get the point). And often wish that could be my work. I know my purpose here in this life is to help others heal, feel joy, and guide them back to love. As a carrier of light, I feel this is my time to hold space for everyone. Teaching yoga in its entirety brings me a bit  closer to myself and others with every exchange, whether it’s a hug, a helping deed, or teaching a yoga class in the studio (or now online.)

I have spent a small amount of time diving into studies about eastern religions and yogic philosophy. By no means am I a philosopher, a theologian, or an expert in religious studies, so please receive my interpretations that follow, as my own. The first rule of buddhism states that life is suffering. The second rule, then says, to suffer is not enough. So although life will bring us hard times, it also gives us the tools to cope, and a guidelines that state, if we want to feel joy, that we must rise above the suffering. These wisdoms I have found repeated across many religions and spiritual texts.

This is where my yoga practice and my connection to self, and an ok-ness with all the fear, uncertainty and unknown come into play. I have learned from my own life experience, the more open we keep our hearts, the more we lean in to what we can not control, the more we accept and surrender to what we do not know or understand (which is just about everything) the more freedom, harmony and peace we feel. As humans we are taught and programmed to attach to what we know to be real. So at a time in our lives where everything feels so surreal & so uncertain, we are perhaps being given a massive, unprecedented opportunity to learn. An opportunity (presented in a really fucked up package- as often the great teaching moments are) to practice more acceptance, more patience, more kindness, more love. Life is asking, practically begging us to dedicate our choices to bettering ourselves, and as a result, inspire others, to do the same.

Now is a time to focus on you and cultivating a strong(er) sense of self. What a sweet opportunity for growth, to get to know yourself in new and wonderful ways. What makes you feel alive? Not by outside circumstances, but by hobbies, likes, and simple joys. You don’t have to take this path, you can sit around, bored, frustrated, upset. But think for a second, the possibility that could come in to you life if you chose to open up, instead of close down?…

So in these times I encourage you to sit with this stillness, and pause. Explore it with curiosity. Soften to the untold. Do not resist what is happening, (ultimately causing more friction and suffering) but stay open to receive what is. Gently try to step into the flow, and see where it takes you. Yes this is scary, but fighting upstream will eventually wear you down, and not get you far from where you started.  I do believe what is meant to happen will always find a way. So how gracefully (or not) that way happens, exists in the power of choice. A choice that is ultimately up to you. Let your mind rest in your own personal ability to control yourself, what you think and how you act and treat others.

Also, remember it’s okay to not feel okay. These are indeed stressful times. So continue to greet yourself (and everyone else you pass along the path) with love and compassion. Stay hopeful and engage in positivity every chance you can. We are truly all in this together. Maya Angelou said “every rain storm runs out of rain.” I have faith in this truth. This time will pass, and despite hardships, we will be okay. Stay connected to each other anyway you can, and when this has all passed I hope we’ve learned the beauty of a more humble, gentle and simple way of living and existing – with ourselves and others. From my heart to yours – I hope your days to come find you with feelings of happiness, gratitude, calmness, freedom and peace.”

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Photo by @KarsonCoastal

xx

Wander with love sweet beings,

Katie

Humaness.

I can’t tell you how many times over the past months I have asked myself

Who am I?

As I look down and my nikes ( yep,  haha, not only has life gotten me into shoes, but nikes…woah)

My no longer sun kissed skin (white as a ghost, uhhhhgggg the crime…

Or my sad salt-less hair (these mermaid locks have not tasted the salty sweet waters of the sea in months…) 

And, ya know, it’s funny.  Because in this journey of living and loving – healing and growing I have realized that these things outside of me like shoes or clothes (or no shoes and bikinis) do not define who I am. Life is happy regardless.

On the inside I am the same.  We are all the same. 

I am not these clothes or these circumstances.  This accident and the injuries have essentially forced my life to go in one direction (at least for the time being) and defaulted me to a (short term) stagnant place. A physical place of not allowing me to choose the activities of surfing or yoga or traveling, or walking down the street or driving, or so many of the everyday things we are able to do when our bodies are healthy and well, this experience has violently shoved me in a direction, a direction that has led me to like myself even more than before. Even pale, and in shoes, and clothes, and layers, and broke… but smiling, always smiling.

So who I am has as nothing to do with anything external. I am someone who has seen a bit of a detour, a setback as some may call it, and learned to love myself even more. I am now, deeper, kinder and more compassionate. And that’s that thing about life. We have no control over what happens to us. Only how we choose to respond. We are truly not a reflection of our outside circumstances, and I don’t say this from preaching – I say this from my heart. I say it to remind you that if you find yourself faced with a challenging times, you yourself have to power to shape how you experience it. My hope for you is that you find the tools and see the benefits of taking the path of positivity. I’m not saying be happy all the time, cause even I lose my shit every now and then, but it’s about more than that. It’s about finding a way to enjoy life.

 

Speak to me only with your eyes…

Oh the ways Robert Plant can sing to my soul. I love this set of lyrics from Led Zeppelin. It’s always stirs a visceral reaction from me, but even more so now, that I have been pushed to  examine life from such a different perspective. For me it alludes to the magic mystery that exists beyond the physical – beyond the surface of clothes and shoes, skin color and accessories… it awakens our awareness to a Self that lives deep within. Words like this, and a seeking for greater awareness, that sparkle that lives in the eyes of awakened beings – is an invitation to find and  to live with joy. A joy that is so available in all of the everyday things we see – to me that’s exciting part about self discovery and a spiritual journey. Nothing has to change for this to happen, only the way you look at things =) 

And when you begin to look at things differently, the things you look at begin to change. You just have to be willing.

 

As FDR said. And which I know in my life to be very true.

“The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” 

Music, wisdoms like the one mentioned above, and the mystery of looking into someones eyes evokes so much meaning,  if we let in these vulnerabilities in we arrive in places of empowering awe and wonder, places we can only arrive to if seek what is beyond the surface….

There are so many things In life we can and will miss out on because (or if) we are afraid to look beyond the flesh. It is a fear. A fear that we will find something we are afraid of within ourselves. Fear of inadequacy, of unworthiness, of self doubt, or maybe the fear is even bigger than we can comprehend, so instead of diving in and finding out what vastness lies beyond, we choose to stand safe on the surface and wonder, but that unsatisfied wonder, only leads to more fears. We fear limitations, or perhaps the opposite, we fear the enormity, of the spirit, or the soul of life in its entirety –  it can be crippling. Or mind blowing. To really begin to imagine how very small yet simultaneously powerful we are. 

When we look within and see wounds to unwrap – know that these traumas are there to guide you to the parts that need to heal- they are not going to kill you, they are challenges that live has given you  to help you grow. They are there to teach you. Life is a students game. 

A quote I found through my spiritual studies, a quote that I return to often when I am feeling overwhelmed by the unknown is this. 

“In the beginners mind there are many possibilities, in the experts mid there are few.”

Shunryu Suzuki

To me this quote offers a perspective about not knowing, a perspective that says in the not knowing the possibly to learn is endless, and that potential is where all the magic of growth is waiting for us. Perspective is powerful. And there is another yogic practice called pratipaksha bhavanam. (That I’ll talk about soon, but its about our ability to cultivate the opposite of a situation when we don’t like how it is going or making us feel) =) …. Soon, i’ll share that soon – OR – ( The beautiful people at http://www.rebelandmuse.com have recently invited me to be on their podcast, and we chat quite a bit about this idea there….. go check it out! ) ANywho

We will only benefit from the continuous exploration of self. This injury, in my perspective, has only been good. Painful and life changing, yes, but ooey gooey dripping in epiphanies that take place driving on the freeway or by way of the hot steamy shower, at the gym of all aweful places, or sitting in my car in a parking lot in the rain…kind of good. Pain is a part of life, choosing how we respond to this pain is what dictates the quality of our lives. I absolutely had moments like this before the fall, but these are different. These come on the dawn of a cold dark night, and for some reason to me that makes them more profound. Maybe I guess then, the way I see it is, this experience has deepened my understanding of things that only have light shown on them by looking over the edge of darkness and sinking right into it.

And then coming up smiling. Because well, it’s fascinating down there, deep in the depth of our wounds, it’s a vast majestic an if we dare to go there (with an open and positive mind set, of what can come from this situation)- anything is possible. I believe now more than ever in the power of our minds. This power is the same way people like Nelson Mandela survive lock up or humans survived the holocaust. And although I am no comparison to these kinds of hero’s maybe my journey can be an inspiration to other ordinary people like me and you. Maybe I can be a reminder that we are all capable of greatness, and that “greatness” doesn’t look the same for any two people. That’s the greatest part. As we change and grow our best also transforms day to day, and season to season. But believing in a bigger something, anything, the possibilities to overcome, to create, to learn, to forgive (ourselves and others), to grow, to let go, to thrive are literally infinite.

Being injured has given me an opportunity to be with myself. It has given me time to explore me. My thoughts, my feeling, with out interruptions to the things we as humans normally do to fill our days. And this opportunity has allowed me to fall even deeper in the love with with who I am. It has showed me parts of myself, sad parts, strong parts, injured, humble, simple gentle unadorned with life’s decorations parts…

(Below, the documentation of my knee’s sweet journey =) I am proud of what a healing machine it is!!)

 This essence of self, of life that maybe is only revealed in times of challenge , of woundedness, is what makes us strong. This injury has been a beautiful opportunity to see my body broken and in pain, but capable of healing, capable of finding the light, the positive, and what a miracle it is to see the body heal. To see myself in my lowest time, and still find the beauty in who I am, this my friends, is a truly humbling and empowering  lesson to learn. And for that, this process, this experience, maybe I will go as far as to say this gift of a different and deeper, more simple (even more simple than I already was) approach to life – well for that i am extremely grateful. I

Diving head first into the belly of injuries and recovery is honestly anything but cool. It’s not glamorous. But it is real. It is a process, it is a time to really sink my teeth into all the things I preach when life is healthy and thriving. It is truly a time to digest what exists beyond the physical world we live in. It is a time of letting go, of surrendering, of shifting the energy away from negativity and back towards gratitude. It is a time of patience, of acceptance, of love. Of looking myself in the eyes, and loving what I see. It is a path of gentleness towards self, of not judging the days when I want to be anywhere but here. And knowing that as a human, a spiritual beautiful divine being, but a human non the less, that it is okay to struggle. I am not any less of a yogi, a teacher, a leader a light bearer or a guide because I too face demons, demons that can paint even my light and sparkly  sky with darkness. And you sweet person are the same. Remember that with impermanence comes happiness and sadness and if you can just stay afloat when the seas are the roughest then that is enough. Not only is it enough, but it is a sweet victory when you rise to meet the new day, maybe naked, and battered but resilient, stronger and ever so beautiful 💙 so I send you this message,  to you inviting you join me on this humble journey to discover the limits of the universe, a reality juicy with life’s subtle joys, full of adventure and full of  love.

This idea of the mind and greatness and how no two things are the same from person to person, has been a duality I have been applying to the idea of success; and how it’s come to look and taste In modern society but that maybe that’s not actually what “success” is at all…

I feel good about it:) got that coming to you nexts

I hope my story inspires you of what greatness you have within you – as a human – as a divine magical being living inside a bag of flesh, stacked with bones, wandering freely on this planet. Trying to make sense of this wildly joyful life experiment.  Life’s great mystery is our prize.

Be well my friends. Be kind, Be love.

xo

Mermaid

ps. im also helping host an epic event tomorrow. here in the link =) if you are in town, come join us!

https://www.eventbrite.com/e/yoga-daytreat-live-music-soundbath-energy-healing-vegetartian-lunch-tickets-52180804190?aff=ebdssbdestsearch