You’re single so you date.
But then dating gets tired.
You get on the “Im a Queen kind of train.” (Empowering for sure, love to date myself – I’d recommend it at least once if your life if you are a woman and have yet to indulge in the magic of self.)
Okay, but then, sometimes with this single thing, you get bored. Or have needs. So you date. And every once in a while (cause you are for sure picky, and you deserve to be) you meet someone you like.
But, do you sleep with them just because your horny?
Or because you actually like them?
Or, do you hold out?
Cause society says you should.
You wonder why there are so many rules. Because you don’t like rules. Why can’t you just do what you want?
Well, you can. But then, what exactly is it that you want to do?
Dating is fun, especially, like I said, when you find someone you like to date. But then, the feelings thing. You love to love.
You fall in love every day.
With the clouds and the trees, and even him. Well, not completely him. But he is lovely. But it’s just fun right? Even though you kind of (really) like him. And games, are fun.
But you’ve been there. Done that.
So you wonder, is your free wild spirit ready to be tamed?
And even if it is.
It’s only fair to ask yourself…How can you dive into a relationship again, just when you are about to launch off to foreign destinations. And you know how that goes.
Same song, different dance.
When you leave to these far off place, the romance of the journey becomes our love, and your heart goes right along with you. It takes no prisoners in this journey of gypsy fun.
SO how then, can you ask for more – when you don’t know what it looks like to give that of yourself.
Maybe this is what your tender wild heart really dreams of…
A safe place to always call home. Not in a location, but someone one on board, to hold your hand, and your heart on this magnificent cosmic ride.
Then you wonder.
Is any man going to rise to the challenge (and reward) of loving such a bold, free, untamed and sensitive soul…
And then this dating thing again.
You wonder again, should have slept with him so soon?
Well. yes. duh.
He make you feel so good. Those yummy lips, his manly body, his manly everything. His sweet smile. But there are 7 million people on the planet.
SO many more to meet in this life.
But you like this one. Right now.
So what do you?
Put yourself out there.
What have you got to lose? Dignity isn’t measured by times you’ve been turned down. And courage can be defined by how brave you are, especially when you are afraid.
Not of being vulnerable no, that’s the easy part. So – you go for it.
But. Well, your dating right? And alas, you learn. So is he. And not just you…
Even though he tell you he loves your energy. Maybe that’s what he says to the other girls too?? Or maybe he just wasn’t ready for someone so wild and refreshingly vibrant to enter his space.
Well fuck him you think?!
Yes. But no.
Cause he actually seems genuinely sorry to know he hurt your feelings.
It’s this dating thing…
Being together is lovely. But so is being alone.
NO feelings get hurt when you date yourself. No hearts get broken when you’re out on your own. So you straighten up your crown (the one he knocked sideways when fucked you like he owned you.) Which, let’s admit it you liked.
But that still does not mean he deserves your body or your time.
Because you know you know your depth, and your worth.
It extends far deeper than the soft spots he found inside of you.
Respect is just the minimum. He clearly still has much to learn.
And sex with yourself is uber fun too…
So, off you go. You stand up tall. You own your power. You keep on shining your magnificent bright light. That bright light that oozes out of your pores when you know the magic you hold in your bones.
You know, that his days a better with you around. Because you infuse life with generous, abundant love.
But you are happy to return to yourself.
You focus on you. And what makes you feel alive. Back to the waters of expansion and creativity. Masterfully crafting this path of your own. Boss babe shit. Is back on a roll.
You fill your days with indulgent self love.
No better time than now, to stay (or fall back) wildly in love with yourself.
And that’s why your own days are better with you around. In making your own company, the best there is, then everything else, is just a bonus gift.
So you stay single. And not a victim to this single life, but proud – that all you need is you.
And when he calls you again, you are have the power. To wish him away, or invite him along.
But there are no regrets when you stand in the radiance of your own divine self.
3 Replies to “Confessions of a Single Girl”
A wonderful writeup that gloriously emphasized the bliss of self-love. Thank you for sharing such a meaningful post! According to your convenience please do read some of my writings would love to know what you think about them. 😊
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Did you read my mind when you wrote this? I cried and yelled out and felt this. I am so proud of you!! I miss you, love you, hope I can find the self love you have, because, woman, it’s invigorating.
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